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Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Heavier Things

Here is an update on my life:

I spend countless hours at my internship. I write about a million papers for my Plantijn classes and for my UMaine online classes. I attend classes. I read articles and post responses weekly. I partake in the occasional weekend fun, but it is a rarity. I feel guilty about it the next day. I defend my home country and state on a daily basis and it is exhausting. I struggle through language barriers and cultural/personal differences. I am constantly explaining where I come from and why I act the way I do, which is emotionally draining. I somehow fit in time to learn some Dutch to please others. I work on my portfolio and kill about 50 trees in the process in order to prove my competence. I complete multiple applications for my senior year and I worry about these uncertainties. I try to find time to look at classes for the fall and need to sign up this week. I experience a slight case of home sickness for a short period of time every day. [I complain about these things on my blog. haha]. And then by the time I get home, I collapse in my bed and enjoy an episode or two of either Glee or Bones to silence all of the thoughts that are drowning me.


WAIT A MINUTE! I'm in freaking Belgium? Shouldn't I be traveling? ugh. This would be the time to mention that I'm traveling to France on Thursday. Until then I am going to stress, because I have to write a paper before I leave. While there I will stress, because I have more work that will pile up and I will have to do the second I get home. On the bright side, I haven't had a panic attack yet? bahaha.

OKAY. I am over the analyzing tonight. I have been listening to this song on repeat for the past week and I think it applies quite well to my current feelings. It is called "New Deep" . . . do I really need to tell you the artist?


I'm so alive
I'm so enlightened
I can barely survive
A night in my mind
I've got a plan
I'm gonna find out just how boring I am
And have a good time

Cause ever since I tried
Trying not to find
Every little meaning in my life
It's been fine
I've been cool
With my new golden rule

Numb is the new deep
Done with the old me
And talk is the same cheap it's been

Is there a God?
Why is he waiting?
Don't you think of it odd
When he knows my address?
And look at the stars
Don't they remind you of just how feeble we are?
Well it used to, I guess

Cause ever since I tried
Trying not to find
Every little meaning in my life
It's been fine
I've been cool
With my new golden rule

Numb is the new deep
Done with the old me
And talk is the same cheap
It's been

I'm a new man
I wear a new cologne and
You wouldn't know me if your eyes were closed
I know what you'll say
'This won't last longer than the rest of the day'
But you're wrong this time
You're wrong

Numb is the new deep
Done with the old me
I'm over the analyzing
Tonight

Stop trying to figure it out
(you try to figure, you try to figure it out)
It will only bring you down
You know, I used to be the back
porch poet with my book of lines
Always open knowing all the time I'm problably
Never gonna find the perfect rhyme
For 'heavier things'

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Good Love Is On The Way

 On Friday we met up with some of Eline's friends and they were very nice to us. We had some drinks at a bar and then went to a club called Noxx. The music was great and we had such an amazing time. I was rocking out to some Lil' Wayne songs on the second level, only to later find out that Lil' Wayne was performing these songs on the first level. Woops. Didn't even know he was there. =) Sometimes I amaze myself.

WE MADE IT THROUGH DUTCH LESSONS! It was frustrating, but we got through it and we even learned a few things. We will continue to have this class throughout the semester but only for two hours every two weeks.

We start our actual classes tomorrow! I am excited/nervous. Though I won't be in an actual classroom as often as I am used to, it is looking like I am going to be doing way more work than I am accustomed to. My weekly schedule looks like this:

Monday:
8:45-10:25: Body Expression class (only lasts 7 weeks instead of 14.) [3 credits]
10:40-12:20: International Course on Socio-Educational Care Work [3 credits]

Tuesday:
12-3pm: Staff meeting at my internship

Friday:
2-4:45pm: Field Practicum (every other week where we write case studies and papers about our internship and check in with our supervisor). [this class + internship = 3 credits]

On top of that, I will be working 22+ hours at my [unpaid] internship. And on top of that, I am taking two courses online [6 credits together, grand total of 15]. Right now, it is seeming a bit odd to me that the internship that I'm working 22 hours for plus the field practicum and papers, etc. is going to transfer as 3 credits.I am very happy for the opportunity and the experience, but that is a lot of hours to be putting in on top of writing papers and work for other classes for only 3 credits. I hope it doesn't become too much! I'm a little worried, but trying to stay optimistic.

Last week I met with my supervisor at my internship. His name is Jelle and in 2006 he studied abroad at the University of Maine. He showed me around the facility and explained a little bit of what I'll be doing. I was slightly surprised to hear that I will be working 11-hour shifts, but excited to be spending that much time with the children. Basically, children of any age get reccommended to live at this facility. They may be having troubles at home, with the law, etc. It is our job to figure out why they are there. We (social educators, interns, psychologists, etc) talk to them and get to the bottom of what is going on in their lives. At the end of their 2-3 month stay we make a reccommendation that they either go home or go elsewhere and whatever other reccommendations need to be made. There are about 12 children there at a time. I'm keeping this description a bit vague, because I don't want to get anything completely wrong. My first day is on Tuesday so I'll know a bit more then and will be able to articulate my actual responsibilities at that time. So excited to meet the kids, but a little nervous to communicate with the younger ones who don't speak English!

Good Love is on the way to Belgium in the form of Karin Baard and Tanna Jellison! Karin will be here on Wednesday and Tanna will be here on Friday. We are currently making plans to visit Amsterdam with Emilee and Amparo! Sooooo excited. I can't even describe how happy I am to reunite with these two ladies. Eagle Love.

I hope to have A LOT to blog about after this next week. Looking forward to so much! =)

Saturday, January 22, 2011

From mixed drinks to techno beats, it's always heavy into everything...

On Thursday we finally picked up our pictures to decorate our rooms. They look so much more cozy now. =) We also did a little grocery shopping and lounged around because we knew that we had a long night ahead of us.

We met up with Eline and her friends at a bar around 8p. *On a side note, Eline apparently has very few girl friends. hah.* Our friend from Norway, Therese, joined us. At 9:30p we went to a sushi bar. I was so adventurous! I tried almost everye thing in front of me and I even used chopsticks. hahaha. All of you at home would be so proud. It may or may not have taken me like 20 minutes to eat each piece because it was taking me so long to pick them up with the chopsticks, but it was fun.

Vincent's girlfriend, Anouk, met up with us and drove all of the girls back to Eline's while the guys walked. Such gentlemen! Haha. I actually don't think they had a choice. ;) I believe I recall Eline saying something like "The girls are going to go in the car and the boys are going to be gentlemen and walk." Love her!

We hung out at Eline's until about 1am when we tried to go to Cafe Local, a club, but they were at capacity and only letting those with membership cards in. So we went down the street to Velvet Lounge. Eline explained that it is a really fancy restaurant, but after the plates are cleared everyone gets up and dances. We did the same. The crowd was a bit older, but we made our own little party. It was a blast.

So after our crazy night on Thursday, we kind of lounged around the apartment all day on Friday. I also made the biggest plate of spaghetti known to man and ate every bit of it. SO GOOD. om nom nom.

Today, Saturday, Emilee and I went to the Fashion Museum and the Diamond Museum. The Fashion Museum exhibits the works of different designers every couple of months (I think). Currently there is a ginormous hat exhibit. I quite enjoyed the more modern looking hats that reminded me of Lady Gaga. I was also amused by the hat that was literally made out of barbie doll legs. So creepy.

The Diamond Museum was WAY more up my alley. Ahhhhh everything was so gorgeous. Unfortunately, cameras weren't allowed so there are no pictures to come. We were pretty bummed about that. We wanted to pick out our favorite pieces. However, I'm pretty sure we both agreed on our favorite necklace/earring set. I will find a picture and attach it. There was also a golden tennis racket with like 8 pounds of gold and thousands of diamonds set in it. Good. Lord.

Tonight we met up with our friend, Amparo! She is from Antwerpen, but she studied at the University of Maine last semester with the same program that Emilee and I are here with. She brought us to a small jazz pub. It was so cool. Twere three levels, but everything was very open and there was a jazz band...obviously. We caught up with Amparo and then we went to a french-fry stand thing..hah.. Apparently it is a favorite spot of the students here. Mmmmmmmm. Theeeen, Amparo took us across the river to a view of the whole city at night. So pretty! It was such a quiet area too. I didn't realize how loud the city is until it was quiet again. I could have stood there staring at the city forever...accept it was freaking freezing!

Also, I bought new ballet flats today, because I left my favorite pair at Glenda. UGH I was so mad. So anyway, I decided to wear them tonight to break them in. Maybe it was a good decision to do it on a night that we weren't out dancing all night, but we did A LOT of walking. My heels hurt pretty bad, but they looked WAY worse than the felt when I checked them out at home. There were literally pools of blood in my shoes. ahhh, so gross. Emilee almost passed out when she saw them. OOPS.

It is so great to have Eline and now Amparo to show us around the city. I don't know what we would do without them!

All for now, next week is going to be very similar to this week. Window shopping, touristy things, dutch lessons, pubs, night clubs, etc. at least until we start actual classes. =) <3

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Wait Until Tomorrow

So, after a week of window shopping, Emilee and I finally decided to make some purchases on Tuesday. She got a sweater and I got a little black dress. Very practical purchases. =) It was raining, but we really had a great time shopping. We have yet find boots that are up to our personal standards, but also within our tight budget. We'll keep looking! Hopefully we find some before spring!

We also had our first dutch class on Tuesday. It was frustrating...to say the least. Our teacher refuses to speak any English so we rely on pictures and pointing to try to figure out what the hell she is saying. We are learning a lot though, as frustrating as it might get. I'm trying to stay positive about the whole thing and learn as much as possible without wanting to pull out my hair. We have this class this week and next week, Tuesday-Friday from 2-4pm. We will also have it throughout the semester every other week for just one day again for 2 hours. We can do it!

After class, we met up with Terese and got sandwiches and coffee at Panos. So good that we ate there for lunch again today. The workers are so patient with us...I think that's part of why we like it. It is also quite affordable compared to previous lunches we have had.

Today before class, we kind of took it easy. Class was a bit easier today, simply because we knew what she expected and we knew how to communicate (or not communicate) with her. It is going to be okay.

After class today, we went to Ikea with Eline. SO much fun. It made me wish I had a home to decorate soooo badly. Someday, someday. There were also toddlers running around everywhere, which made me smile. =)

Tonight and tomorrow we are resting up, because we have a big night on Thursday! We are going to Eline's for sushi and drinks and after we are going to a club. It is also the last Thursday night for our Finnish friends so we will most definitely be meeting up with them at some point. It should be a long, long night, but we are very excited! ;laksdjfla;ksjdfl;ajsldjf. <3

Monday, January 17, 2011

Comfortable

Today was such a productive, yet relaxing day!

First, we went to our medical exam to make sure our vaccinations are up to date and just have a routine check up. Sorry if this is overshare, BUT I have to tell the story. The woman who was looking through my papers and checked out my eyes and such, did not speak the best English in the world. So, she looks at me dead serious and goes, "Okay now you to go to the bathroom and make pee pee in this cup." I may or may not have bursted out in laughter and said, "WHAT?" ahahahaha. I think she though that was the proper way to tell me that? I'm not sure, but I could not help it.

We met a few girls in the waiting room who will be in a couple of our classes at Plantijn. I think they thought we were crazy. Woopsies. Julie did explain that Belgians tend to be a bit more introverted and I definitely forgot when I told them that the doctor asked me to pee in a cup. They looked a little mortified and I made a mental note that not everyone is as open as me.

After that, we took our time walking through the city and took a ton of pictures. We are becoming so comfortable with living in this city at this point. We have been so proud of ourselves lately. Although, we did have a bit of an epiphany a couple of days ago. This is really sad, but it is just too funny to keep to ourselves. So the first day we went to a movie, we had been shown the theater before, but we just kind of stumbled upon it again and decided to see a movie. When trying to navigate ourselves home, we got ourselves so far away from home that we had to take the subway back to Central Station and then try to find our way home from there. And we did, but it literally took us an hour to get home. When walking to the theater to meet our international friends, we came to the horrifying realization that the theater is literally 5 minutes from our house. You literally take a right and it is a straight shot.

On top of that, and possibly even worse, there is a street called Mier and it is like THE street for shopping. We have been window shopping there everyday. Central Station is at the end of this street. Well, even after we finally figured out where the theater was, we did not realize it was on Mier straat and right beside Central Station. The route we had been taking to Central Station had been taking us about 20 minutes...We finally realized today that we live about 8 minutes from Central Station and from Mier straat. Soooo embarrassing, but at least we can laugh about it now.

So, after frolicking around the city, we went to the school to become formally registered students. I cannot even explain how relieving it was to have all of our paperwork in! Medical exam and registration done in one day! Now if only our student IDs would come like...yesterday. =)

For lunch, not only did we meet up with Eline, but I met up with my dear old for, Tomatoes. For those of you who know me well, you know that 1. I love tuna and 2. I HATE tomatoes. Well I got a tunafish sandwich. When I opened it, it had some tomatoe chunks in it. It also had chunks of pears too, but I was less concerned about that. I almost decided to start picking out the tomatoes, but instead, HOLD THE PHONE, I left them in and ate the sandwich. It was actually probably the best sandwich ever. The mixture of the tuna, mayonnaise, pears, tomatoes, and delicious bread was heavenly. You better all be super proud of me, because I don't try new things often, especially with tomatoes in it! om nom nom. I want another one right now.

After lunch, we were walking around, window shopping for diamonds and then Eline said that she wanted to treat us to coffee in the opera house. The coffee shop was GORGEOUS. We're talking Sistine Chapel level gorgeousness. And apparently the Brad Pitt of Belgium showed up a few tables over. It was kind of funny, because Eline was getting just as excited as we were to see Rupert Grint, but we didn't understand her this time! His name was Kevin Janssens. If you google him, he is pretty darn good looking, but I don't think we appreciated it as much as Eline did! The cappuccino was delicious. Thanks Eline!

After that, Eline reccommended we go to another mall. We had the greatest time window shopping. I have been so proud of us that we haven't spent all our money on clothes, because we have literally browsed through all of the stores here and have made no spontaneous purchases! We did, however, buy adorable postcards to send to loved ones. These have literally been our most exciting purchases. We were so happy after that point.

We got home around 7pm and are currently still forcing ourselves to stay awake so that we can sleep through the night. Tomorrow we are meeting up with Eline to window shop some more, but this time at Ikea. I can't wait. I love picking out my dream furniture on the website so it will be fun to do so in person too.

I will be posting pictures on facebook soon I swear! I took so many today there is bound to be some good ones! <3 <3

Sunday, January 16, 2011

My Stupid Mouth

International students say the darndest things. The best part about our new international friends is that we can make complete fools out of ourselves and they don't mind, because they have been in and are in our positions as well. They are living in a culture they are not used to and, though they are a bit more experienced in Antwerp than we are, they are learning new things everyday just like us.

Yesterday, we went to a farmer's market. It was HUGE and there was a plethora of any fruit or vegetable you could possibly want. Not to mention massive amounts of olives. So. Many. Olives. Eline bought us some mini-waffles and they were delicious. Emilee and I inhaled them like we had never been fed before.

After purchasing some fresh fruit, we went over to Eline's mother's house for some coffee. I love the little coffee breaks here. Even though life in this city can be so fast paced and overwhelming, there is always time for a coffee break in order to get away from everything and I have really appreciated that so far. It seems like at home I am too busy to just sit down and enjoy a cup of coffee or tea and visit with friends, but it's such an everyday thing here and I am in love with the idea.

Eline's mother's (whose name is escaping me at the moment. Help, Eline? haha) house is gorgeous. She has some beautiful artwork and the architecture of the building is just amazing. House Hunters International would be drooling over this home. She has a puppy Wilma, and it was great to  play with her. It kind of made me miss Murphy (who by the way, I skyped with the other day). KIND OF. hehe.

Eline has exams on Monday, so we parted ways and went back to our apartment, but not before her mother so generously loaned us one of her big cooking pots. We were debating on whether it was worth it or not to buy one. We wanted to make soups and freeze portions so we can eat it later on, but we didn't have anything to cook it in. It was so nice of her to just dig one out of her cupboards and let us borrow one of hers! We really appreciate everything Eline and her mother have done for us so far. =)

Last night we went to a movie with Anssi (Finnish), Tanya (Finnish), and Janis (Latvian). We saw Little Fockers, which was terrible by the way, but I very much enjoyed watching Tanya ask for "One to Little Fuckers." (woops, sorry this blog just turned rated R). The best part is, she knows how to say "Fockers," but she explained to me that her accent is so thick that she can get away with swearing. People don't say anything because they blame it on her accent and the fact that English is her second language. "I just like to say it because I can." Oh my Lord do I love this woman.

Speaking of English as a second language, or as Liz and Miranda coined it, ESL, it is hilarious. Some of the phrases they use are so adorable we just have to laugh. Emilee and I definitely have to over-simplify our sentences and make sure we don't use slang in order for them to fully understand what we are trying to say. What is funny is that sometimes when Emilee and I are alone, we still find ourselves speaking in over-simplified sentences or in round about ways when clearly we can understand each other fine either way. The other day Emilee said "I have a lot of hiccups." Ahahahaha. I loved it.

After the movie, we went to a pub. We had a couple drinks and had some great conversations. It was fun to explain fraternity houses to them, because their only image of them are what they see in movies. It was so great to get to know them a little better too. Next Thursday is their last Thursday so we are hoping to make it memorable for them. We will definitely miss them, but hopefully we will make more international friends when classes start.

We start dutch classes next week! Ahhhhh. It should be interesting to say the least. Wish us luck!

Much Love all, <3.

Friday, January 14, 2011

Neon

SUCCESSFUL DAY AND NIGHT.

Never once did we get lost today and we ran quite a few errands. We went to the school to take care of some paperwork (which we need to complete today), we printed out pictures of friends and family to decorate our bare walls, and we met up with Terese, an international student from Norway. We did a bit of shopping and went out to dinner.

The new find of the day was Cherry Beer. It is delicious. The beer here isn't like the crap we have in the U.S. As Emilee said last night, probably the worst Belgian beer (and there are 2,000 kinds) is better than the best U.S. beer. I would be willing to take that bet as well.

Liz and Miranda, the two UMaine students who were here last semester, left us some names and numbers of people we needed to meet. After facebooking Julie, she invited us to a party at a friend's apartment. This friend is Anssi, an international student from Finland, and also another contact they had left for us. We hung out with international students from all over, but the bulk of them were from Finland. They were SO good to us. They really took us under their wing and immediately accepted us. It was so nice to make new friends. Julie will be here the whole semester because she is from Antwerp, but most of these new friends will be leaving at the end of the month. I think Emilee and I almost started crying when we figured that out.

Single-handedly the most frustrating part about Europe is being STARED at and judged when I pick up my sandwich and eat it with my hands. I thought I was being safe in getting a sandwich. NOPE, they eat those with fork and knife as well. I almost started crying. I was so hungry and I had to sit there and cut it up and then eat it. It was like falling apart because I wasn't doing it right.

It is so difficult, because I feel like people don't understand why we can't eat properly. We can't eat with the fork in the left and knife in the right simply because we do not have that muscle memory. That is not how we were taught when we were toddlers. It is the same thing as learning to write with the less-dominant hand.

Most of the time I can laugh at these things. And I did the first time when we were among friends, but it's just gotten very old, very fast. I'm trying so hard to embrace it and try my best, but when I am hungry and I just want to eat my food, it is difficult to do so, but if I don't people stare.

The other downside to living in Europe and to studying abroad is that it is SO EXPENSIVE. My funds are depleting already. I am hoping that once we getting settled it we won't be eating out quite as much or buying little things for the apartment, because my funds are hurting already. Financial Aid, feel free to come in any time!

Love, love, love Belgium.